Strawberry Letter 23: Weekend Trips

I am in a three year relationship with a man who is involved in the party business. His company promotes ski trips and parties, he is only a promoter. We have a one year old boy. Before we got involved I heard rumors of him sleeping around on these ski trips, and he was in another relationship at the time.

His excuse is that he was unhappy with his relationship. He claims that his girl did not care for him. I can’t help but wonder if he would do the same to me. We are very happy in our relationship but that still does not stop me from wondering. While I was pregnant he went on a trip and took pictures with girls, dancing and posing. This does not help me to trust him.

I’ve been waiting for an engagement ring, he claims that he’s been engaged twice before and it failed on both occasions. We’ve argued because I say that I don’t want to wait anymore, it’s not fair to me. For this Valentine’s Day he gave a pre -engagement ring. I settled for it, and now I still have to wait for the real thing. I love this man but I feel that he’s either lying to me or not serious about me at all. I’m 26 and he is 35. I’m eager to share, explore and grow with my man, but he’s basing our relationship on his past with limitations.

What can I do? I don’t want to spend the rest of my life waiting for him…