Subject: I Want to Stay Clean
Good Morning Steve and Shirley,
I am a 39-year-old grandmother and ex drug addict. I started getting high at age 8 by drinking and it progressed throughout my life with weed, cocaine, heroine and many other things. Through the grace of God, I do not have any diseases. Over a year ago I joined Narcotics Anonymous and I have been clean and will not take away the blessing God has given me another chance at a clean life. I met my man about 3 months into being clean and he was clean as well. He is 49 years old, smart and handsome. We became best of friends and then we became a committed couple and we got an apartment together. Two weeks after we got the apartment, he got high. I found him at another woman’s house, he was there all weekend getting high and who knows what else. I left him, then I took him back. He has relapsed several times and disappeared for a day or two at a time. Why do I feel bad that I dumped him? I will not take him back, but I want him though, I love him, but I don’t understand why my heart won’t let him go! Am I stuck on stupid? Or maybe because I know what it’s like to want to stop getting high, but can’t. I stopped getting high, so why can he? I refuse to let him treat me like dirt anymore. Did I mention that he beat me once? Please share some advice!
Thank you clean and serene
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