Strawberry Letter 23: HIV Positive
Hello Shirley, Steve, Carla, and Tommy,
Let me say that it’s hard to write about something this deep. I recently tested positive for HIV. Now, I have come to grips with this situation, but here is what I’m pissed about. The young lady that I had been dealing with knew that she was positive, and never said a word.
I can’t be all mad at her because as a man, I should have protected myself better than I did, but at the same time, I asked this girl beforehand, was there anything that I needed to know. I was faithful, and if she would have told me in the beginning of the relationship, I would have stayed with her because that’s how much I liked her. I was upfront and honest with her from the start.
So, what do I do? We attend the same church here in Texas, so I see her all the time. I haven’t been able to say anything to her as of yet, but when I see her I just want to kill her. I’m to the point where I get depressed about the situation because she knew the entire time and never said anything. I’m upset because this not only effects me, but it also effects my family and children. It brings tears to my eyes because I face the possibility of not making it to see my children get of age and get married.
I’m sorry if this is long, but I had to talk about it to someone. Morning crew, I just need your help. I know this is deep and you were not expecting this, but this is no joke, and people need to stop playing games.
